Am I there yet?
Have I made it?
When are they Spice Girls reforming?
All questions I have been mulling over the past few months (even the Spice Girls…seriously!) I guess now I’ve moved to Dublin, finally, I assume everything I’ve been working toward should be within easy grasp. But it’s not. It’s not even close.
Maybe I’m being melodramatic, but at 25 I would like my life to at least look like it’s getting itself together. But so far no job (not really), no boyfriend (ha!) and no clue what is happening with myself. In my last post I mentioned I was at the beginning stages of sorting something out in my life, yet in the 7 months that have passed I don’t think I have made any progress. Now I’m not saying I’m not happy but maybe I had my expectations too high..
The one thing Dublin has done for me is exposed me to a greater gay scene, shocking (!) But as grateful as I am to get more guy contact I just wish it would work out better…or even at all! I have had dates with weird guys, clingy guys, overly attentive guys and even perfect guys but nothing. On a side note, if you’re going to act couple-y with me it gives me the impression you are interested and when you ghost me, its a swift kick in the…shins. That shit hurts dude! Not that it’s something foreign to me ; see Begin Again.
I guess I need to work out what I want and how to get it, make a plan and stick to it. Which goes for where I want to be work wise, location wise and love live…wise.
I feel this post is a bit of a mish mash but I needed to write and isn’t that the point of this?
I don’t wanna dream about, all the things that never were.
maybe I can live without..